Don't ever blame yourself because of the happiness you have made and lived with.. It was what you had lived with. It was the happiness that made you smiled. It was those days you have looked forward to in your life. Learn to cherish these effort people have put in to make those days beautiful and don't take life for granted. Because it wasn't easy for people to be always there and make times too good for us that it touched our heart deeply. Be more appreciative. Happiness doesn't come always.